notice
Say something I’m
giving up on you.
Because I am. I tried to hang on. Short of showing up on
your doorstep in tears, I gave you more than enough opportunities to notice. To
notice what I was going through. To notice how much I need you.
Anywhere I would’ve
followed you
Actually, no. I didn’t just give you opportunities to
notice. I straight up said, “I need you.” This wasn’t just some expectation I had
for you to “notice.”
I’m still learning to
love.
I’m not perfect. You’re not perfect. And neither of us has
to be. It’s also a lovely reminder than we are both starting from the same
place.
Say something I’m
giving up on you.
It’s not my nature to give up. I’m a fighter. Always have
been. When I know someone who wants to can be better and it matters, I fight to see them
become better. I walk beside them, challenge them, love them through it.
But when they don’t notice either you or what you’re doing…
Or notice you and what you are needed from them, it is time to stop the fight
and walk away.
I’m sorry that I didn’t
get to you.
Walking away, giving up, not getting to you… will you
notice? Why do I hate myself for caring if you don’t?
I’m saying goodbye.
Comments
The search for a good closure in a relationship is something we can all relate to. Most of us aren't quitters - we stand far too long, in fact.
You are touching on a deep need we have, in so many of us. Good writing 0 thanks!
The heart of the problem and the essence of the solution.
Bob, if only I could figure it out. This experience is definitely teaching me more about what love looks like.